Saturday, July 26, 2008

Needing your prayers

Normally I don't share a whole lot of what is going on in my life. Mostly because I don't want to bore you. :) Today is different. I want to share this because we need your prayers. So many things have happened in my life that have made me know that prayer works. The power of prayer is amazing.
I started this layout with a photo that I loved. It is not finished, because the story is not finished. I want to share the journaling with you, to explain why we need your prayers and why I will not be around for several days.

"I used this photo because I loved it. The page did not get finished, because it didn’t have a story to tell. We didn’t realize that two days later, it would have a story. Your dermatologist appointment did not go as planned. We were expecting to hear about how we would laser off the hemangioma between your eyes and the birthmark on your cheek, no big deal. What we were told left us in complete shock and fear. Your birthmark was a congenitive nevis, meaning a mole from birth. BUT it is hairy and abnormal. The doctor showed us a photo of a cancerous mole and your mole, and we could not tell the difference. Your mole will more than likely turn cancerous by the age of 10. If it did turn, we would never know and the mortality rate would be 50%. Everything said after that just turned into a blur, our whole world turned into a blur. You would need surgery to immediately remove the mole. It would have to be cut out because the hair means that the mole is to the fatty layer of skin. The odds of needing to take you to the Main U were a distinct possibility. Your hemangioma was also abnormal. It collapsed and pushed the fatty layer out, so it will never disappear like most do. We left that day in disbelief and with an appointment with a facial trauma plastic surgeon.
Within a week we had some answers. Dr. Portilla could do the surgery in town and as an outpatient procedure. He would also remove the hemangioma at the same time. We were so relieved. The mole will have to be sent to pathology, so we are not in the clear yet, but knowing that we can bring you home right away is comforting!It will honestly be strange to not see you with the marks anymore. We cannot really even imagine what you will look like. We are still scared, but we know that this will be harder on us than on you. We love you. You are our everything, our one and only you."

Ethan's birthmarks have always been so tough on me. People have made horrible and rude comments, and let's face it, its tough when your child looks different and everyone constantly asks "what happened?" The strawberry hemangioma between his eyes was the worst and bothered me the most. I never dreamt that the brown birthmark would actually be a medical concern.
Ethan's surgery is Tuesday morning, very early. Please pray for the surgeons, nurses, and all the medical staff. Please pray for our son and that surgery and the recovery goes smoothly. And please pray for Greg and myself. We are trying to be calm, but inside we are in knots with worry and fear.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you for your prayers and the moment you take to say them. I will post a quick update sometime later this week.


34 comments:

Alli Miles said...

Wow Kim that is quite a story. My prayers are with your family.

jeriray said...

I am praying for your dear sweet little boy! And I am praying for your family to have strength during this very stressful time. I strongly believe this will all have a very happy outcome.

Alicia said...

My prayers are with you and your family.

Zarah said...

Sending my thoughts & love!!

Regan said...

Oh Kim, I hope all goes well- you and your family are in my thoughts!!

Terri said...

I can only imagine how hard this has to be for you. Just try and take things a day at time right now. I hope all goes well. You will be in my in my thoughts.

Tammy Hershberger said...

Sending you all lots of love, hugs and prayers!

GabrielaD said...

Praying for you and your family.

ScrapbookDBA said...

Kim -
I also believe in prayer and I will pray for your son, you and your husband and the medical staff in the morning.

I wish you all the best and a speedy recovery for your son,
Kimberly

Niki Estes said...

Hugs and prayers for you, your husband and your son! I hope everything goes smoothly and he has a quick recovery.

Julie Masse said...

Kim I'm so glad you shared this so that we all can pray for you and your family! I will definitely be praying for the surgery to go well and for you as you wait!

Amy said...

Take a deeeeeep breath sweetie! God is soooo good and he will supply you with comfort and courage more than you ever thought you could muster. He is your mighty rock and refuge. Be strong for your son and get down on your knees and give thanks that the drs caught this EARLY and that you live in a country (and STATE)with fabulous medical facilities. MN is the best place for you to live in as far as medical treatment goes, so PRAISE GOD Kim!!! I will hold you guys up in prayer tomorrow. I will pray for wisdom and discernment for the drs that they are confident in their treatment. I will pray that God fill you with peace and hope and comfort while you await word on the outcome of the surgery! Thank you for sharing this with all of us. It helps to share our burdens with others because it lightens our load.

Hugs,
Amy

Stacey said...

my thoughts and prayers are with your family. Thank you for sharing so that we can share in helping you.

Heather B. said...

Sending prayers & (((hugs))) for your family. God Bless!
Heather B.

Anonymous said...

Kim- your family and little Ethan are definitely in my prayers. What a scary time for you, but God's hands were in this from the beginning- and it was He that lead you to this hard news, but potentially a life saving. I just shared my favorite scripture verse on the PTI forum today, but I will post it here for you now, too:

Isaiah 41:13
For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

God bless you!
Erin

Karen from PA said...

I will be praying for you and your family. Just want to share with you one of my favorite Bible verses. It has helped me through some low times. Isaiah 41:10 "Fear thou not: for I am with thee; be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."

Alicia said...

Kim,

I will be praying for your little Ethan and for you and your husband. Having gone through this all last year with our Ethan, it is all too scary. Just have Faith and BELIEVE! That is what has gotten me through some of my scariest moments.

Take care, Alicia

Jenelle said...

You, Greg and little E will be in my thoughts and prayers. Sending big comforting HUGS full of love!!

maria fiscella said...

Keeping you all in my prayers.

Jewels said...

What A sweet Little Boy!!! My Family and I wil be keeping you in our thoughts!!!

Drika said...

Kim!
I will be praying for you! For sure.

Be calm because your son needs you. And everything is going to be just fine.

My heart is with u!
Adriana - brazil

Alyssa said...

Wow! You and yours will be in my thoughts. He is such a cutie patootie and is lucky to have a mom that loves him so very much (I'm sure his dad does too) :o)

Mariska said...

I will say a prayer for you and your sweet little boy Kim. I'll be looking out for your update and hope that by then you can tell us everything went perfect.

Taryn said...

Praying for your little one, Kim, and for you and your husband. I can only try to imagine how difficult in must be...and I'm sure my imagining doesn't come close to the reality of how you feel. I pray you will feel the peace of the Lord through the whole journey.

Melissa said...

Kim,
You and your sweet Ethan are in my thoughts and prayers today.
Big Hugs,
Melissa

Michelle@ Everyday Celebrating said...

I have a boy of my own and I know how you must be struggling right now. Thinking about you now and I'll most definitely be thinking of your family and that sweet sweet boy in the AM.
Thank you for sharing your story.

moster said...

You and your family are in my prayers!

Kacey Elliott said...

I can not even imagine the heartache you must be feeling right now, and how scared your little man must be. I will certainly keep you all in my prayers. Please keep us updated. Hugs,
Kacey

Deanna said...

Oh Kimberly... I am so think you and you family!

Jen said...

My prayers are with you and your family. I hope that everything goes well and that the mole comes back benign. My daughter has a hemangioma on her head so I totally understand the rude comments people make and how much more difficult it is for the parents. So far the doctors are not worried about it. I try not to worry about it, but you never know.

Charlene Austin (Willow01) said...

Kimberly!! OMG...I can't believe I just read this. I feel terrible for not being there for you. Oh my dear friend I will be praying night and day. My niece has 2 strawberry birthmarks. One on her bottom lip and one on her stomach.
I will email you tomorrow before we leave. BIG HUGE HUGS to you!!!

Ann C. said...

Dear Kim.... I'm praying for you and your family - peace and trust - and a quick & full recovery for Ethan. Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Believe, trust, rest and stand! He has permitted this trial to show you that He is a bigger God than you knew and you will come out better for having gone through it!
Do not fear, only believe! Mark 5:36

Anonymous said...

This is my first visit to your blog and so sorry to read sad news. Maybe I was sent here so I could join in the prayers. You are ALL in my prayers including the medical staff taking care of your precious baby.

Evette K. said...

Please know that sooooooo many people are praying for Ethan and your whole family including the doctors and nurses who become your family after any surgery. I know they did for me last year when I had my CA surgery. I had basal cell ca on my nose and had it removed. Plus I had an Great Aunt who had a hemmangioma on nearly all of her face. She lived with it her whole life without problems. Yes tons of awful stares and comments but no cancer in it. Our Lord and savior will be with you all every step of the way and so will your loyal followers plus more "other" people who pray for us all. God bless and please keep us informed. Thanks. And big hugs.